too long

WOW it's been too long. I don't know,,,, I've had some extra time to post but I'm just not feeling it. I feel like I"m exhausted, but then I also feel a since of accomplishment right now too. I'm so proud of Shawna that I feel like I can't be down because she's doing so good. Well might be a nice front on the things - but she's holding up good. Mal is doing good too. Excited for soccer which she loves and she's going to try softball this summer too so she's staying busy.
As for me with my training - doing good. I'm following my schedule & now I feel so guilty if I think about missing a day. I'm addicted. I think about Trey often when I run. Then after the completion I like to stand facing the sun, feel the wind on my face, listen to HELD and most of the time have a good cry. It'll be two months Saturday if you go by dates, two months yesterday if you go by the weeks. It's hard to believe that when I go to mom's that he's just not going to come running up those stairs and scare us - he always did that. I know he was in so much pain towards the end - and now he's free.
I follow some others blogs/ caringbridges pages. Our Miss Olivia is getting ready to go on her make a wish trip - I believe Hawaii! How wonderful. Our Ryan is struggling a little bit with his counts to be up so that he can get his chemo again. & of course others that i read about - such strong families all brought together by this horrible disease! Say prayers for ALL the J5 kids/families/friends and supporters. We love you!